I can’t do this. I’m having an anxiety attack. This is too much for me. I dread going only because I feel so alone there. I’m so alone and it kills me.
I miss you ever so much. I love you with all I have. All I am. I wish you’d see that. I wish you missed me. I need you. :„(
Awe that drum to a heart beat moment popped into my head.
We had such I good time. Spent the afternoon together. Slept in your bed all afternoonish-night ;). Then we went to see your step brothers performance. And the entire time we looked up bad stuff over Tumblr :p you ate that hoooot pepper. And you were a baby. We got some jack in the box. Then you took me home. I don’t remember the rest lol ;p
Gah those simple nights. Haha.. I miss those.
I miss yoou.
You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?
You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love enough to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way.
Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would’ve walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day
